Verge of breaking.

23. Injured Athletes.

Thursday, January 28, 20102:28 PM

SPORT INJURY — HEALING THE MIND AND BODY
by Nancy Rebel, SIRC

Dealing with the physical side of injury is only half the battle.

We can not forget to address the importance of healing the mind of the injured athlete.

Many things can influence the way a person feels about
their injury such as: the severity of the injury, previous
injuries, their position on a team, their family and friends,
and the type of sport they play. Girls often experience
greater injury anxiety than boys.

All of these factors
combine together to leave the athlete dealing not only with
the injury but a whole host of fears and insecurities.
A player may experience fear about feeling left-out of team
activities. They may feel that they are letting themselves
and their teammates down. Some may feel that they will
lose their place on the team with prolonged absence.

Many may have a fear regarding their ability to return to their
pre-injury skill level or re-injuring themselves. Some athletes
have trouble with their self-esteem and self-worth,
wondering who they are if they can not be the athlete
they are used to being.

more at: http://www.sirc.ca/newsletters/mid-july08/documents/InjuryPsychology.pdf

feeling me?

22. hehehe.

Wednesday, January 27, 20103:21 PM

me: bi, why do dwarfs always laugh when they play soccer!!!!

Joachim: erm

Joachim: duno

Joachim: lol

me: because the grass tickles their balls.

Joachim: hahahahha
Joachim: SHIT
Joachim: NO WONDER I ALWAYS LAUGH

lolll. ^^

21. Jatdoby,

11:39 AM

I'm sorry...

20. You're right.

11:06 AM

cause i'm about to throw almost everything/everybody else out of my life.

" fate determines who comes into your life,

& heart determines who stays. "

Those whom my heart recognize, stays.

the others, go away.

19. Nineteen.

Tuesday, January 26, 201010:39 PM

yup, the last "1".

I'm nineteen, no doubt.

thanks for all the advanced celebrations.

I really enjoyed myself throughout.

Dinner with family was great too.

As you grow, maybe you wouldnt look forward much anymore.

though i know i should expect so much or so,

i still look forward to 25th jan.

its like, ahh, nice. :)

I chose to remain offline yesterday because i wanted to see who remembered.

i would take the smses, and the face to face as sincere wishes.

facebook comes as the last option but still, thankyou everybody. :)

well, the whole of yesterday was damn awesome.

big thankyou to Joachim who tried to make it big and grand.

thankyou for the, happy meal delivery, special hotcakes.

then to spreading that its my birthday to everyone.

after which, coming into class with a cake with the whole of E44a singing. :)

thankyou so much.

Not forgetting my classmates of course. :)

Joyce & Cheryl. :)

and lastly, Angeline, Catherine & Xiaojun!

yes, the canoeist, not all but yup.

those who sang sincerely, in the gym. :)

and junior guys who started singing till the whole of Megafoodmall was filled with their voice.

Audrey, who felt like shit when she woke up late,

not being able to "smash" the cake in my face.

haha.

Papa & Mama. :)

A red packet. hee.

THIS IS A MUST MENTION!

Enna! :)

i swear i love you. :)

Last but not least,

Xiuhui. :D.

A present that comes with special meaning.

i lost my 18th birthday present in LSR,

but i promise i'll treasure this.

I'm gonna get Mummy to wrap it up nicely. :)

so 25th jan came, and left.

so...

i'm 19.

time to face the world once again.

Now,

let me look forward to 31st jan for 2 things. and....

lets welcome Febuary. :)

18. Still hoping,

Sunday, January 24, 201010:34 AM

that 2010 is a great year pleaseee......

When i was so sure of rejecting iip in semester two.

hehh...

Posting results quite weird.

but oh well. :) hope things goes well.

Next up!

Celebration at Timbre!

Thanks for everything, Zhaoyueeee & Cheryl. :)

Everything was great! :D

To the little red dress, to the surprise then the two undies and the ahem, shirt.

hehehehehe.

look how much we've changed kaeee!

From

TOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

Tadaaaa!!!!!!!!!

Together with Hongshan & Joachim, thanks for the great evening. :)

Joachim brought me out ytdddddd. :)

i will scan all the polaroids when im really free okkkk.

like, seriously, im damn busy?

I realise i've been waking up really early and never passing like. 8am.

finally get to sleep till 10am today, thought i woke up at 7am like automatically. :/

ahhhhhh, another long week to go.

kbyeee!

17. Because,

Friday, January 22, 20101:01 AM

i want to be left alone tonight.

dont bother asking why.

this is way too hard and tough to handle.

one more reason to add on that,

i shouldnt be here.

16. Its been a long week.

Thursday, January 21, 201011:52 PM

mentally drained...

15. zzzomgosh.

Tuesday, January 19, 201010:15 PM

i guess i've never been so scared.

this is the worst situation i've ever handled and i must say i done a bad job.

sucks.

sucks that i didnt calm down and i panic and i didnt know what to do and my mind wasnt thinking right.

fuck that the whole incident is making me traumatised over and over again.

and its troubling me so badly.

cause it keeps appearing in my mind.

jiu ming ahhhhhh............

14. Segregation.

10:14 AM

with this continuing,

i believe i'm gonna die in my own hands.

13. =(

Monday, January 18, 201010:23 PM

dont like to be here.
dont assume without hearing my explanation.
sigh.

nobody understands?
fuck it.

12. I dont want.

Friday, January 15, 201012:18 PM

The last time it happened was back in sec 2, 14 years old, year end.

I dont want it to repeat.

but why.

how do i put everything into words and convey out my thoughts.

harder than i thought.

i dont want.

but i cant even help myself anymore.

11. Give me a reason.

10:45 AM

The truth is eating me up real slowly.

how do i, express how i'm feeling right now.

run away?

10. The more;

Sunday, January 10, 201011:43 PM

the more i see it, the more i get retardedly upset.

the more i think about it, the more i get mad.

the more you "try", the more i despise.

the more of hanging around, the more of wanting to yield to temptations.

work was fine.

its always when its after work.

Now that my phone is being confiscated during work.

theres no way anyone can contact me or so till i punch out.

theres never peace.

never.

so i have to repeat this for the _ times tonight.

FUCK MY LIFE.

because theres too many things clashing together and its impossible to tear myself into parts.

UTs. Training. Work. UT revisions.

Im desperately looking for replacement on Wednesday.

7pm - 11pm.

please please please?

09. dead & gone.

9:19 AM

exhausted.

training yesterday followed by 3 hours straight of shopping?

i think i almost died.

drained out..

very burnt too.

work later at 2pm..

bah..

bye~

08. Dear Joachim,

Saturday, January 9, 20108:40 PM

Thank you. :)

07. Because..

Thursday, January 7, 201010:27 AM

you no longer bother.

so why should you be in my life?

i dont need anyone to feel sorry for me.

So dont worry, even if the sky is falling down

Down, Down

Gonna be okay, when it knocks you down, down, down

So baby dont worry, its alright, a-alright

When it knocks you down

When you go down, when you go down, down

No need to worry, just get back up

When you are tumbling down, down, down

Oh, Ive been travelling on this road too long (too long)

Just trying to find my way back home (back home)

The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone

06. Never enough for you.

Wednesday, January 6, 201011:22 PM

I'm really.

really.

sick of this.

like. have never felt so.

aimless.

like, everything i do.

is just so meaningless.

pointless.

whatever-less.

just.

let it go.

cause i think i came to the point that i feel that.

theres nothing to be angry and upset for anymore.

it isnt the first time people commenting about my size and weight.

and. its true that i'm this way.

so. be it sinking or whatever shit, i cant be bothered?

plus, the knee isnt helping.

i doubt anyone knows how i feel.

yes i'm training. but so what.

the pass few training seems like going through motion.

i cant run, i cant this, i cant that.

fuck.

happily seeing the weight increase on the scale.

despite controlling what i eat and all.

not only this, so many things have happened since the start of 2010.

im so sick and tired of all this.

so sick and tired of school.

of physiology.

of this.

of that.

of living up to peoples expectation.

of knowing how much people are disappointed in me.

of disappointing others just because they dont understand.

make sense?

ok. hmm.

I'm not emo-ing ok.

its just.

life's like that.

so.

ok.

i give up.

if you dont get it.

then.

ok.

sorry.

cause.

d.p.d.p.

on a lighter note,

though it was still quite frustrating,

i started using Samsung Corby in Pink.

quite irritating cause a little retarded.

but.

hmm.

I think i like Joachim's HTC tattoo sensitivity.

and oh yeah.

i looked up Monash University's website and i cant wait to fly over and take,

Nutrition and Dietetics.

hee.

okbye.~

05. Still disorganised.

Tuesday, January 5, 201010:06 PM

I'm so sad.
I'm not trying to be picky or what.
I just need something like my 2009 organiser.
I cant find.

I tried to use this particular one.
ended up, it looks so messy.
& i cant stand it..
bahhh.
I'm hungry.
I'm feeding on yoghurt. :/
I'm tired.

Theres work tomorrow.
bah..
ok.
I NEED A SUITABLE ORGANISER FOR MEEEE. T.T
i think i can just die.
booo....

04. Favourite month of the year.

3:39 PM

I love January.

but its gonna pass so quickly.

i need an organiser or daily planner.

way too much things going on.

Training, work, UT, prescription project.

omgggggg.

everything is clashing.

i need to get it asap.

Prints sells ugly organisers. sucks.

Dont pass too soon january.. =(

03. Tears.

Monday, January 4, 201011:28 PM

i want to know.

how much tears can one shed in a day.

cause after a long day,

"wow, i still have tears?"

02. Ice.

10:45 PM

Its hard to pretend i'm ok.

the thought of it is able to make me tear.

i dont know whats happening now.

I'm losing my motivation.

i'm losing everything that, i'm not suppose to give up on.

Wo jing tian.. ku le hen duo..

wo hen lei...

Not much of detailed post here for this period of time.

i'm somewhere there.

see you.

01. I know its late but,

3:28 PM

Wishing all, a great 2010. :)

As claimed by me,
This blog wont be closed for long.
I still need this space for breathing.

Its either here or there.
if you know me well enough, you know i'll stick with childishdelights no matter what.
So here i go..
Welcome to my life, 2010.

PS; previous blog post at : http://childishdelights2009.blogspot.com/