Verge of breaking.

06. Never enough for you.

Wednesday, January 6, 201011:22 PM

I'm really.

really.

sick of this.

like. have never felt so.

aimless.

like, everything i do.

is just so meaningless.

pointless.

whatever-less.

just.

let it go.

cause i think i came to the point that i feel that.

theres nothing to be angry and upset for anymore.

it isnt the first time people commenting about my size and weight.

and. its true that i'm this way.

so. be it sinking or whatever shit, i cant be bothered?

plus, the knee isnt helping.

i doubt anyone knows how i feel.

yes i'm training. but so what.

the pass few training seems like going through motion.

i cant run, i cant this, i cant that.

fuck.

happily seeing the weight increase on the scale.

despite controlling what i eat and all.

not only this, so many things have happened since the start of 2010.

im so sick and tired of all this.

so sick and tired of school.

of physiology.

of this.

of that.

of living up to peoples expectation.

of knowing how much people are disappointed in me.

of disappointing others just because they dont understand.

make sense?

ok. hmm.

I'm not emo-ing ok.

its just.

life's like that.

so.

ok.

i give up.

if you dont get it.

then.

ok.

sorry.

cause.

d.p.d.p.

on a lighter note,

though it was still quite frustrating,

i started using Samsung Corby in Pink.

quite irritating cause a little retarded.

but.

hmm.

I think i like Joachim's HTC tattoo sensitivity.

and oh yeah.

i looked up Monash University's website and i cant wait to fly over and take,

Nutrition and Dietetics.

hee.

okbye.~