051. Downfall.
I dont know if its just not my time of the year or what.
The harddisk have to crash at this period of time.
& i had to withdraw from NCC...
I swear it wasnt easy to pick myself up after last october.
I dont think i'm feeling like, ahhhh, damn wasted.
not about sad and angry.
but disappointed and more of relieved.
Shall skip the disappointed part.
I dont know if throughout the years being a sportsman have taught me to be sensible, the modules i've taken in DSES or the constant naggings from my family.
no matter what, i guess i should be glad that i'm responsible of my own being,
and i didnt want to risk anything so i headed for the doctor.
What if i took the risk, and went straight ahead for NCC.
What if, i didnt even manage to even compete and the muscle just tear during warm up.
What if things got worse and i had to be admitted to the hospital.
These thoughts drive me crazy.
I hesitated long enough to visit the doctor.
should have done it during monday so maybe i'd be able to recover.
all the way till thursday, i think the pain gave way.
and i knew it was serious matter and i cant endure it another day.
Even if this was one of the last few race this year,
be it..
I guess its better to give up NCC than give up exercising for the rest of my life..
Back to square 1,
pick it all up again.
& im sure, this time, it'd be easier..
All the best to RPC tomorrow,
best shot, remember.