I dont know if its just not my time of the year or what.

The harddisk have to crash at this period of time.

& i had to withdraw from NCC...

I swear it wasnt easy to pick myself up after last october.

I dont think i'm feeling like, ahhhh, damn wasted.

not about sad and angry.

but disappointed and more of relieved.

Shall skip the disappointed part.

I dont know if throughout the years being a sportsman have taught me to be sensible, the modules i've taken in DSES or the constant naggings from my family.

no matter what, i guess i should be glad that i'm responsible of my own being,

and i didnt want to risk anything so i headed for the doctor.

What if i took the risk, and went straight ahead for NCC.

What if, i didnt even manage to even compete and the muscle just tear during warm up.

What if things got worse and i had to be admitted to the hospital.

These thoughts drive me crazy.

I hesitated long enough to visit the doctor.

should have done it during monday so maybe i'd be able to recover.

all the way till thursday, i think the pain gave way.

and i knew it was serious matter and i cant endure it another day.

Even if this was one of the last few race this year,

be it..

I guess its better to give up NCC than give up exercising for the rest of my life..

Back to square 1,

pick it all up again.

& im sure, this time, it'd be easier..

All the best to RPC tomorrow,

best shot, remember.